So many things.

For the longest time I told myself that I had abandoned this blog. Legitimately abandoned it. But tonight - and a few other nights to be honest - I'll admit I have so much on my mind that abandonment seems like an utterly foolish thing to do.

So I apologize. For those of you who actually took an extra five (or more) minutes out of your day to read my rambles and insights, I am sorry I quit so abruptly.

Also, for those of you who didn't know, Occidental College is a really difficult school. Like really difficult. And that gets frustrating sometimes because like, I'm not used to taking four classes at once man! Four classes where each professor expects 110% from you or more...like wtf? Well, I've been here over a semester now, and somehow I've managed NOT to flunk out, so that's a bonus that I may or may not repeat to myself in front of the mirror daily. Really, I think that's all you really need to know about my schooling...the rest of it is all just cliche bitching about classwork and having too many papers due and not enough time to do them.

Fucking professors.

No not really, I like them. I really do. Like there's this one teacher, Professor Stone; I literally worship the ground she walks on. No, the water she walks on, because she's just so much cooler and smarter than everyone else. Don't tell her I said that, well...I guess you could, I'll let you decide.

Anywho, I guess I really just wanted to write tonight because I have things on my mind that need to be released out into the physical (or online) world. I guess if there was one thing I've realized, and fairly recently, is that I have a difficult time admitting when I'm wrong. I feel like we all have that issue at times, but now it feels like it's kind of just eating me up...like some kind of parasite that I wish I could just take a drug for to kill. But that's not how life works...the bastard. Oy. I just hate getting in like, little spats with people and then finding out like halfway in that I'm the one who's wrong. Or even that I'm the one who's right but I have no way of proving that I'm right without sounding like an asshole. And usually about halfway into these things I wish I could be somewhere else anyway, so I make some half-assed excuse to leave.

Blah.

I won't burden you too much with this, since it's been like 84 years...

...since I last blogged. Sorry, I couldn't help myself, I love that gif. And I feel like I have so many more things that I could talk about, but right now that's in the front of my brain. Sometimes I just want to scream at myself to just CALM THE FUCK DOWN and say I'm sorry, or I am so wrong here it' s hilarious, but I can't, because I was raised to be a pretty non-confrontational person, and unfortunately that little bug has stuck with me into my 20s. I have no idea how to get rid of it, so any thoughts would be extremely helpful.

So yeah. I feel like I'll be writing on here way more often again now, so please stick with me! Because I love you! And I have many things to say, about school, and many other adventures. And who knows, maybe I'll even write a few flashback posts to some adventures I had last semester, like meeting MY BEAUTIFUL AND COMPLETE IDOL Kate Walsh in a movie theatre on Thanksgiving.

Oh, and Happy Easter! He is risen! :) I may or may not have sworn too much in this blog to claim that I believe in God, but I do nonetheless. <3

I'll see y'all on the flip side after church in the morning!

~Erin

P.S. I may or may not have taken some selfies with a fake mustache tonight...gracias Instagram.